I feel like all I do these days is let people down. And I might talk a good game and use the ole “I don’t give a fuck” convincingly, but truth be told? I care. I really care. I don’t want to hurt people. I don’t want to disappoint anyone. Except none of that seems to matter. “I didn’t mean to” doesn’t apply. Because it’s already done. In a week’s time, I’ve managed to disappoint and/or hurt my mother. My father. My sister. My best friend ever in the whole wide world. My boss. Es. Plural. I have a lot of bosses and I don’t think any of them are happy with me at the moment. I used to do things right. When did that change? When did I start failing life? And why is it that the more I try to make things right… better… the more damage I manage to inflict?
Chocolate + Whine
InstaPlayed a fun game tonight at the pool. You got to drink whatever you (blindly) picked out of the cooler. Might be a La Croix or a Golden Road beer. Fun times were had by all (except those that picked a water) (even tho La Croix is delicious). @goldenroadbrew @lacroixwater #funtimes #pool #phase10 #daydrinking #bestpals #sundayfundayThe manfriend smoked beef ribs for 10 hours today. Only pissed off one neighbor. #success #bbq #beefribs #greenmountaingrillsCute little straw roses in my Thai tea. #thaitea #thaifood #dinnertime #nomnom Also, why do I share so many photos of drinks?? #weirdo